The Storyteller looks at us expectantly after ending her tale of Midir and Etain. Shall I leave you now to speak with one another about this story, about transformation in Etain’s life and in your own?
Something in our expressions seems to give her our response.
You don’t feel ready to speak of it? Why ever not, my dears? Have I been all this time with you and you still do not understand? It’s a story of desire. You know well that Celtic mystic, Julian of Norwich, how the Holy One told her, “I am the ground of your desire, the cause of your longing…” and sure haven’t you been reading all about the physicists, how they found that the caterpillar in her cocoon becomes a soup of cells, how the imaginal cells conquer the older caterpillar cells to transform into a butterfly as Etain becomes a purple fly of wondrous size? And then in the womb of Etar‘s wife… Or is it the final transformation you don’t understand… because you have not yet experienced it… the transformation by love into Love?
Do you want me to speak with you about this? to teach you the deeper hidden meaning in the story?
Storyteller looks serious, pauses, considering.
Very well… there is a poem by Hafiz that begins to tell of it.
There is something holy deep inside
Of you that is so ardent and awake
That needs to lie down naked
Next to God.
Hafiz has given you all the teaching you require. His poem speaks of love, the passionate love of the Holy One for you. Hafiz is teaching you of that immense longing for union that is at the deep heart of this story, the longing that kept Midir seeking Etain for a thousand years, giving finally his riches and his labours after losing in the chess game so that he might contrive a way to win her at last from Eochaid. The One whom Hafiz calls the Friend, the Beloved, or sometimes God, is the Holy One who yearns so deeply for you, who is so drawn by your longing that he/she comes to where you dance alone, ready to lift you into the arms of Love. The One who loves you is as full of passion, patience and longing as Midir is for Etain. But there is yet more… Hafiz teaches you one more secret. There is deep within you something so sacred, so holy, that it needs to lie down naked next to God…
The Storyteller adds, with a light playful tone: I could have told you all of that myself when you asked but Hafiz is the better poet.
Now do you understand the story? This is a story of human hunger and longing for love, for deep union. This is a story of the yearning that draws flesh to flesh, that is the allurement that is at the heart of all of life, at the heart of the sacred seeking that first sent humans in quest of the Holy. They sought her among the stars when all the while she lay hidden in the depths of the earth or in the deep sea, in the atoms, the cells, the very stuff of their own bodies.
There is utter silence in the well after she says this.
A listener’s voice breaks through the silence with a question: “Who are you?”
The Storyteller laughs merrily at the question, then says:
Bring your cup and I will pour out God.
In response to our expressions, she adds: Of course that too is Hafiz! Haven’t I told you just now? He’s a better poet than I am.
But another among us asks: “But who are you really?”
The Storyteller begins to sound impatient: Do you still not understand? Why not ask instead who Etain is in the story? In Ireland we name her Aine, or Danu, a name that comes from Anu, the Great Mother of the ancestor gods of the Irish. Aine is ancient and known by many names. She is the womb of life, the vitality in your veins, the sun in your cells. Her breasts are the two hills called the Paps of Anu in Ireland. Her hair flows like the waves, ripples gold like corn. Her eyes hold the starlight, her belly the tors, earth barrows that birth you. Like the cat, the owl, the sow, she eats her young if they are sick or dying. Aine is the cycle of life, the wheel of the seasons.
We look around at one another, to confirm that we are all feeling the same frustration. A third person speaks: “We don’t want to hear about Aine or Danu or Etain or anyone else just now. Please just tell us who YOU are. “
The Storyteller responds: You want to know who I am?
I am every particle of dust and wheat – you and I
Are ground from the Holy One’s Body. I am rioting at your door;
I am spinning in midair like golden falling leaves
Trying to win your glance.
I am sweetly rolling against your walls and your shores
All night, even though you are asleep. I am singing from
The mouth of animals and birds honoring our
Beloved’s promise and need: to let
you know the Truth.
Storyteller: (examining our faces, reading our expressions) Yes, of course, that, too, is a poem from Hafiz.
One of our group speaks to us with conviction: “We will learn nothing more from the Storyteller today. We may as well leave the well, return to the surface now.”
We begin to stand, to move to the edge of the pool, preparing to swim across to the opening into the well. Some of us have begun swimming upwards to the surface when the Storyteller calls out to us:
Wait!! Are you leaving? Like this? You haven’t said goodbye…..
The Storyteller begins to follow, reaches out, drops her arm, lets us go.